Time to check in, after I know I promised more activity that did not come. It wasn’t that I was TOO busy – I just went through a bit of a time where I wanted nothing to do with this blog. At first I couldn’t figure out where the feelings came from but after
dissecting myself a bit (I tend to do that a little too much), I have come to the conclusion that this blog is sort of my honest place. What I type here goes out to actual living people and they may judge me and know the truth – that I was being so incredibly lazy.
Sure, we have a lot going on. We are in the process of packing, juggling 2 houses, a full basement renovation, along with everything else life loves to throw at us. Work is very busy. When I get home, I just can’t think about how to discuss parenting, especially when I feel like I’m not being a great one right now. I realized on Saturday that for an entire week, my kids had take-out food every night for dinner (which never even included 1 vegetable or fruit). I also caught myself yelling again and I even put my son in a time-out, which I haven’t done in months. To round this all off, I have been slowly gaining weight and recently have found that my pants are really tight and uncomfortable and since I threw out all my bigger stuff, I have been sticking with stretchy pants. Ugh!
So I am back, ready to be accountable for my bad eating, lack of exercise, lazy parenting and general bad karma. I give you all permission to kick me if I go another 2 weeks between posts!
I started with a personal trainer last night. I won 6 sessions in a silent auction for my son’s hockey team and finally had the motivation to cash them in. I am incredibly sore today – I had to show him how many pushups & sit-ups I could do in 60
seconds. Oh MY!! Sit-ups, okay, I can handle a few. I have taken my share of classes that involve sit-ups and over the last couple years I’ve improved a lot. I actually did 25 in 60 seconds which although low, is better than I thought I could do. Pushups though, I managed 13 and I questioned whether the last 4 even should have counted as I didn’t go all the way up. And they were the real pushups – no “ladies” pushups, he said we asked for equality, he was giving us equality. I finished with 30 minutes on the stationary bike and learned that all these years, I was doing my cardio wrong! I had always pushed myself very hard until I was almost ready to fall down, as it turns out, I should only be pushing myself until I am lightly sweating and my breathing is
slightly high but I can still manage conversation with a bit of effort. That’s the ideal zone for fat burning. Much higher and I could be doing myself more harm than good. He kept checking on me by asking me questions and if I had a hard time getting my response out, he turned down the level. Working out before, I would try to keep my heart rate around the 185 range. His way kept me at 155.
So even though I will not be continuing with him after my free sessions are up (not unless I can somehow come up with $70/hr), I hope that I will learn a lot and be able to work out more efficiently on my own. I’m back to
see him again tomorrow night and am scared. He mentioned that we would be doing LOTS of pushups. Ugh!
80 days until the wedding…